Thankful

Hey guys! It's Thursday!
I just want to share that I work with the 2 most amazing women I have ever met, besides my mother of course. These ladies just inspire me and uplift me every single day. It's funny how God puts the most amazing people in your life at the right time, when you need them the most. I love these two dearly and I am very thankful to have them in my life.

On the other hand I also work with the two most ignorant immature people I have ever met. I don't know what it is but something about ignorance pisses me off. I just can't stand heartless people. But then again working with these two has really opened my eyes and made me do so much more.

When it is all said and done I feel very blessed. I have a job, roof over my head, a wonderful family, great friends, and awesome coworkers. And every time I start to complain I catch myself now, because things could be so much worse. So I am very thankful for what I have. GOD works in mysterious ways. Love thy neighbor as thyself.

Well it is finally time for me to head home. After another day of frustration with computer problems. At least I get to dress comfy for work tomorrow. I am so ready for all of the Halloween festivities. Have a good night everyone!

-One Love

Hump Day

Well it's finally Hump Day. Around 9am my whole system locked me out and I was left sitting around for hours waiting on someone to help me. Finally around 130pm I was logged on again and could get to working! Today has been rather slow I guess. I went to the podiatrist yesterday afternoon and got some x-rays done on my toe. Hopefully it will get better soon with this medicine he gave me. If not I'm just gonna cut the darn thing off. I put together my exercise bike last night. Yay for me! Good shows come on tonight, Modern Family and Cougar Town.

I found a really good verse today. That was really uplifting to me since sooo many people talk down about giving and helping others. But here it is:

“Don’t excuse yourself by saying, “Look, we didn’t know.” For God understands all hearts, and he sees you. He who guards your soul knows you knew. He will repay all people as their actions deserve.” (Proverbs 24:12)

Explanation of Proverbs 24:12. I liked it so I just thought I would share.

Happines keeps you sweet, Trials keep you strong, Sorrows keep you human, Life keeps you humble, Success keeps you glowing, but only God keeps you going!

I have the above posted right about my computer at work. And honestly it gets me through most of the days. It's funny how those few words can turn things around and uplift you.

Well I am ready to head home, cook some dinner, get a good little workout in, then get cuddled up in bed and hit the hay!

-One Love

Rainy Tuesday

So I had a dream about to ex fiance last night. Woke up sad and pissed off. I hate those kind of dreams. Especially when you are totally not over them. But oh well. I guess it didn't help that when I was cleaning out stuff last night I found cards he had given me and pictures of us. Anyways, this weather isn't helping my mood today. So I guess we will see how today goes.

I have to put my exercise bike together when I get home. Yay. I finally got it. Now I get to exercise while I watch my favorite shows. Tonights line-up is Biggest Loser, The Hills, The City, then Sons of Anarchy. Can't wait. Have a good day everyone.

-One Love

Hard Times

This week has been ups and downs it seems like. Seven years ago I met the love of my life. We became the best of friends. It wasn't till 4 years later that we finally got together and fell in love. I knew he was my soulmate, who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. We had good times and bad times but we were so in love that it didn't matter. Two years later he asked me to marry him. I was so happy. We picked a date and I started planning. I was happy. But then my whole world started crashing down around me. I remember it clear as day. It was Mother's Day 2008. We were leaving his parents house headed back to our home and he broke up with me. I didn't know or understand the reason. We had just told his parents we were engaged and getting married April 25th 2009. The next couple of days we were barely talking and he was sleeping on the couch, something that pissed me off more than anything ever did. So I was fed up. I was tired of us breaking up over nothing. So I did what I thought was right for me. I broke off the engagement, left our home and didn't look back. He thought I would never leave, but I did. I moved back in with my parents and when he realized I was finally done that is when it set in. He called, text, came over every day for 3 or 4 months after I left. Begging for me back, crying his eyes out, saying he loved me and was in love with me and wanted to marry me. But I wasn't having it, I had enough. I was finally taking a stand for myself. So I didn't give in. I moved on and started dating another guy. That broke his heart. But me and him were still friends, we still did stuff together like go eat and go to the park. I was still so in love but couldn't give in. So I tried to fill that void with another guy. It worked for the time being, then it didn't. Me and the guy I was dating broke up on valentines day 2009. I was sad the way things ended, it wasn't a good break up at all. But I missed Ronnie. We had stayed friends then all of the sudden we weren't. He got a psycho stalker chick who is absolutely obsessed with him. I was upset of course but I couldn't blame him. He told me he didn't want to be with her, he just didn't want to be lonely. So after months of trying to convince him to meet with me he did. In May of 2009 we started seeing each other again, and I was happy again. He took me to the casinos for the first time. We had so much fun. It was like we didn't skip a beat. We were still so in love. Then I find out he is still trying to work things out with the girl he broke up with to get back with me. That wasn't flying with me. If we were gonna try to make this work again he had to be all in. Not one foot in, one foot out. So I found out and told him I knew what he was doing, but still kept hearing things. So I couldn't do that to myself again. Then our love was lost all over again. I miss him every single day. Not a day goes by where I don't think about him. My love, my soulmate, my best friend. I miss him dearly and would give anything to have him back. To me and him, what we used to be, when our love conquered it all. I keep pictures of him around and think about him all the time. But I know in my heart that if it is meant to be then it will happen. It has just hit me really hard lately. I want my love back, no one else compares, not even close. But it is in God's hands. I pray every day that God will bring him back to me, and that if it's not meant to be then He will help me find the strength to get over him and move on. Neither has happened yet and I still don't know what to do. I am still holding on and can't let go. I am still in love with Ronnie and I don't think that will ever change.

Anyways, I just had to get that off my chest because it has been really bothering me. Fighting back tears while I write this. I hope things work out one day. This weather isn't helping my mood though. Have a good day everyone. It's finally Friday!!

-One Love

Catching Up

It is only Thursday! Boo on that! Come on Friday!!! This work week dragging!! Anywho all is good in my little world. Besides this rain today, making me sleepy and lazy!



So let's talk some TV:

One of my favorite shows, Sons of Anarchy, is starting to get really good. I've been waiting all season for Clay and Jax to beat the crap outta each other, and it finally happened this past Tuesday. Ha Ha. I think Jax is totally hot too. I don't know if it's the whole bad boy harley thing (everyone knows how I love my harleys, and guys that have harleys, HA HA), but man I just love to look at him.

Desperate Housewives is getting very good this season. Last season was pretty lame and boring but they sure are picking it up this season, I guess making up for last. I was glad when John, the gardener came back on the show. He's nice to look at too. But this season is definitely heating up!

Okay, so The Hills. What is the deal with Justin Bobby? Seriously!! Is it the whole bad boy image motorcycle thing that the girls love? I just don't get it, but whatever. Kristin gets on my last nerves. Definitely don't want her and Brody back together. That would be horrible. As for the rest they are all just idiots, meaning Holly, Heidi, Spencer, and Stephanie. I still love Audrina and Lo.

The City- Not really enjoying it this season, but it is starting to pick up. I guess its Olivia and Roxy, I can't stand them so I really haven't been watching. Whitney is so sweet and innocent, Roxy needs to go on somewhere.

Cougar Town is one of my new favorite shows. It is all kinds of hilarious. Definitely a must watch.

Biggest Loser- One of my all time favorites. I don't think there has been an episode where I didn't cry. I really can't stand Tracy. I think she's evil. Ha Ha. But I absolutely love everyone else, especially Shay. Great, great show.

Ugly Betty is finally back on, except on Friday nights now. I absolutely love this show. I've watched it from the very beginning and I was hooked.

LOST. I am so ready for LOST to come back on. This show is up there with Sons of Anarchy for my favorite. I have all seasons of LOST on dvd. But I think the last season will start in 2010. Makes me sad. I got my ex-fiance Ronnie watching this show and that was our thing every Thursday night we went to Sonic then watched LOST. Oh how I miss him and all the stuff we used to do together. He was my best friend. Watching LOST now just isn't the same.

Greys Anatomy and Private Practice- I used to really love these shows, but this season has gone downhill. I hope it gets better.

Okay, Sunday night shows- Extreme Makeover Home Edition, love love love this show. I cry every week. And then Brothers and Sisters that comes on after Desperate Housewives. I really like Brothers and Sisters, it really is a good show and a lot is happening this season. Kitty has cancer, Justin and Rebecca are getting married. I hope it only gets better!

FINALLY, Army Wives season just ended. It has become one of my favorites. I got my mom into it and that was our Sunday night thing. I can't wait for the next season. I hate the way this season ended. Does Pamela leave Chase? Will Joan survive in Iraq? Did Jeremy kill himself? Will Fort Marshall stay open? Ah so many unasnwered questions, I guess I will just have to wait till next season!

Okay so enough of my babbling! Have a good day everyone! :)

-One Love

WOW. What an amazing weekend! Went to St. Louis to see my favorite band THE USED. It was incredible. They put on a great show, also got to meet them, in my pj's. HAHA. Stayed at a baller hotel called Moonrise. If you ever go to St. Louis stay there!!! Hopefully I can see The Used again in Atlanta on Nov 1st or in New Orleans on Nov 3rd.

Anyways, it is Tuesday and I am back at work. Haven't been feeling so great lately. Maybe it's this weather. Excuse me, when did we skip fall and go straight to winter?!? I love winter time, don't get me wrong. But I LOVE fall and would like to enjoy it. HAHA.


Biggest Loser comes on tonight. I cannot wait! Love that show. And of course Sons of Anarchy, also one of my favorites.

Well I got a headache and my break is over. Have a good day!

-One Love

Heartstrings...

What is this constantly pulling at my heartstrings!?? Please God tell me what it is!! I have been begging and pleading with God for months now to tell me what it is I am supposed to do (it has hit me really hard this past week and I don't know what to do.) But when it is all said and done I know He will reveal His plans for me when the time is right. Now I will just sit here and wait. Maybe He is teaching me patience. WOW.

Anyways, today is FINALLY FRIDAY!! I thought it would never come! Hopefully a busy fun filled weekend ahead. Midnight Madness tonight. Time to see the NEW MEMPHIS TIGERS in action. Oh, just gotta make it through the work day first. BLAH.

Sunday after church I will get on the road and head to St. Louis to see one of my favorite bands, THE USED. I cannot wait. Awesome band, great friends, and a road trip. What more could I possibly ask for?

LIFE IS GOOD! :)

-One Love

Compassion

Okay, so I asked one of my awesome coworkers what kind of charities she donated too. Because the two of us like giving back, and I was looking for another charity besides St. Jude. That is when she told me about Compassion Ministries. Which is a Christian orginization set up to help kids in other countries. This program helps provide: Clean Water, Educational Opprotunities, Health Care, Safe and Healthy Recreation, Social Development, and Opprotunities to know Christ and grow in faith. I was like this is awesome! It was like it just jumped out at me. I had to do it, God was calling me to do it. So I went on the website and starting browsing and reading up on it, and I was touched from the very moment I got to the website. It broke my heart to see all these children that needed help. I just knew I had to help at least one of them, but how could I pick just one?? It is so hard when they are all in need of serious help and love. So I left work and went home and continued my search for the perfect one. I talked to my mom about it and was still so confused on what to do. They all need help! Can't I just help them all!! So I was searching and searching. Country after Country. I got to Uganda, and if I only knew my life was about to change forever. I clicked on a couple of different kids and read their stories. Then I clicked on a boys who had a red heart (which means they have been waiting longer than 6 months for a sponsorship) and he had a red ribbon (which means he lives in an AIDS affected area). So I started reading about this boy and it just touched my heart. I knew he was the one. So I went through the process and became this boys sponsor. I am proud to say I have a new addition to my family. His name is Robert and he is from Uganda. Uganda is a landlocked country in East Africa. Half of the population of the country lives below the international poverty line of $1.25 a day. He is the most precious 9 year old boy I have seen. He captured my heart from the start. I hope one day I can go meet him, that would be totally awesome! Well bloggers that is all for now. I will keep you updated on Robert, he is part of the family now! :) Love thy neighbor as thyself. -One Love

Ah I am entering the blogging world. It has been a long time coming. Today was a pretty good day. I must say God has been doing some AMAZING things lately. Everyone He has put in my life has been such a blessing. Blessings come in many different ways. As I sit here and watch Biggest Loser and reflect on the day I realize just how lucky I really am. Well two work days down, only three more to go! -One Love